looking forward.

Two months.

In just two months, my room will be empty, my life as I know it will be sitting in boxes, and California will be beckoning to me. Unlike the last four times I've had to pack up my life in Burlington, this move will be harder, more emotional, and more bittersweet. Rather than moving just a few blocks away elsewhere in town, this event will mark the end of my time in Burlington for a long, long while.

Lately, I've had a case of the stir-crazies and have tried to leave town whenever possible (hence one of the reasons I am heading to Albany tonight for the second weekend in a row). While I adore my life in Burlington - my friends, my routines, my favorite spots - the weekends have become mundane in a sense. I have not been bored in any sense of the word, but rather, I am going through a huge decision-making time in my life and doing the same thing every weekend is leaving me with a feeling of chaos. I don't know if my need to get away stems from the attempt to run away from my problems, or if simply, I am good and ready for the major change that is about to occur in my life.

Additionally, the main reason I'm going to Albany tonight is because I haven't seen Nick in over a week and I miss him. We have been apart for much longer periods of time and managed without a struggle, but this particular week has been hard for me. We are planning on staying together this summer but there are still so many questions about what comes next. Until we truly know what to expect, I can't help but to just want to spend as much time with him as I can.

All in all though, while there is much anticipation over the whirlwind that is coming my way in two months, I am also EXCITED. Whatever September brings, I will embrace it with open arms, but as for this summer, I have so much to look forward to. I was talking to Risa last night, who is also moving home this summer, and I was thinking of all the things I love to do in California that I haven't been able to do in years, or have only been able to do quickly on my short trips home. I am aching for the beach, for road trips to Santa Cruz or the Russian River, for the city of San Francisco, for the comforts of my home, for bike rides with my dad, for hanging out with Taylor again, for being able to finally watch Sam grow, for seeing Megan whenever I want, for breakfast dates with my mom, for lemon drops with John, for more family gatherings (whether they be Griffins, Hoekwaters, Buckleys or Valentinos!), for Cody, for Ring Mountain, for old friends...for so much more.