finding the good.

True Story: I had a minor breakdown this morning.

Without boring you with details, I'll just say that it's been a rough week of chasing down people with emails and questions and meetings, only to find that checking off one thing on my to-do list just meant adding three more things to it. Every task I tried to conquer lead to more questions or complications until eventually, I lost it this morning when I came upon a giant hurdle in getting my living loans for the semester.

Sigh.

After a little self-pity session (yes, tears and food were involved), I got a text from Nick telling me that everything was going to be OK. I breathed. Then my mom spent 45 minutes on the phone with me, helping me create a navigation route for how we were going to remedy this whole situation. I breathed some more. After I hung up the phone and before I headed to campus in the rain for yet more annoying matters, I decided to pull it together. Sometimes, a girl just needs to put on a little make-up and a comfort outfit, take a look in the mirror, and tell herself that it really will all be ok.

I am so thankful that no matter how sick Nick gets of hearing me worry about money, he knows when and how to say the right thing during the really bad moments.

But especially, I am really, truly grateful for my mother. How many times can I say this? The idea of having to conquer things like financial aid woes without her guidance literally makes my head spin. While I hate the feeling of needing my parents for anything, the fact of the matter is, I do. But I can also be grateful that nothing is handed to me on a silver platter. My mother teaches me how to react, how to conquer, how to move on - all extremely valuable life-lessons. I have to remember how important this is, even if I wish I could do it all on my own in the first place. I will never know how I got to be so lucky but for now, all I can do is just appreciate everything she does for me. Thanks, Ma.

In the meantime, there are lots of annoying little details I still have to work on for the rest of the week, but my head is in a better place and I'm feeling much calmer and more rational than I was this morning, thanks to the magical people I have at my back.